Succesfull Experimentation

Took the PMBR full day exam today, thought I would try some things out since I wasn't so happy with my Barbri score. I just trusted my instincts, put down the first answer that stuck out to me and moved on, which meant I went through the exam really quickly. But, the weird thing is, I just scored it and everyone tells you that PMBR is really tough and to expect a 95 if you're lucky.

Well, (and I'm not gloating, I cannot believe it) but I got a 114, which is two questions more than on the Barbri exam, and in the 75-90%. Needless to say I'm not freaked out but feelin' quite accomplished. Everyone who knows me or read this knows that I'm constantly studying so finally it's paid off. This makes up for the bad essay scores and the fact that I have no social/love/or any other kinda life.

I can rest assured that the studying I'm doing is the right thing (finally) and I can keep truckin' along. Oh, yeah and I'm back on the Paced Program, like an addict to the fix, I can't get enough of it. I was thinking of asking it out once this is all over, but I'm so bad with men it would probably say no anyway, being so popular and all.

And now, the end, and so I face the final curtain

Barbri classes are over - caput, that's it good bye room 214 NYU, I will miss you. I will miss the fact that no matter how warm, or humid, or cold, or rainy you stayed an uncomfortable 56 degrees. I will miss coming in at 8:20 am to start up the projector, get the computer going and write announcements on the board. I will miss putting out fliers that no one takes, miss checking people's Barbri ID's, miss putting essays into piles and being pushed out of the way by grabby bar student hands. But most of all I will miss the fact that when we were going to lectures the bar exam was in the distance, and now not so much.

Readers--I face the future (um the next week and a half) with a bit of uncertainty and ambiguity. While the Paced Program offers me a structured hour by hour time managed course, I fear its rigidity will not work with my independent nature. Tomorrow is my first day off and I wonder how I shall spend it, make up some NYT essays perhaps, or work on PMBR as my full day PMBR exam is Friday, or shall I tear a new one into my Corporations outline as it rightfully deserves for keeping me up at night and not teaching me a damn thing. Who knows, so many opportunities, my future is filled with so much, how could I, me, small girl, be ever so lucky. Truly I am blessed.

Sarcasm aside -- I'm happy to be done with class, happy I got my exam location and its not in Washington Heights, and happy that when this is all over I can say, "I did it my way." (get it? hee hee)

Oh and Frank Sinatra Doesn't Prefer Orville Redenbacher (Fee Simple Determinable with Possibility of Reverter) Genius!

Bar Mission Impossible

Your mission is to overcome tremendous self-doubt, insecurity, and lack of knowledge to pass an exam you have only been preparing for for 7 weeks. If you choose to accept this mission you must get 62.5% correct on the MBE and an average of 5 on EACH essay. This blog will self-destruct in the next five seconds.

Huh, got my essay from the sim exam back today and am so glad it took them two weeks to grade this and hand it back so that I could freak out about not even being close to a passing score with less than two weeks to go. Way to go bar exam prep! I feel great now, that self-confidence I had because I have been studying so hard is completely washed away, nice work. I knew the law, knew the appropriate facts, but apparently it only matters that you don't know anything -- as those that didn't all scored well above me. I feel so great, is it too late to postpone until Feb, oh right I can't I will lose my job.

Needless to say my head is spinning and I cannot even imagine what I need to do right now to overcome this and feel better. Failure is not an option, but it might be my result.